By: DespairGriffin ~
About trades: sta.sh/01eo4fwalfa9
Commission sheet (read everything please) : spsmadika.deviantart.com/journ…
Special requests events may be open.
Here's the link to my request box
Not sure I'll draw your request tho. But still try! I love to try new things and try somehow complex ocs (but not too much :'3 )
Maëlle / Phillys
13 | He / They / She (whatever you want) | Single | Bisexual
~I've Made Too Much Mistakes To Be Forgiven Again...~
~Don't Be Ashamed Of Your Flaws Because They're What Makes You Perfect~
~Feelings are only just a burden to me~
~People may think of love as "Amazing", I see it as what they called me. A "Nuisance, Useless, Bad, Unwanted" Feeling~
~I don't trust easily, so if I trust you, don't betray me 'cause I forgive but I never forget~
~Better make it late in this world than too soon in the other one~
First of all-
I want you to know that I vent kind of a lot, I drew these, think that I shouldn't upload it and then I just think that it's still art soo-
Also, don't worry about me, I vent about useless and stupid things ;v;
I try not to be mean, and would never really even want to be mean or so- I just sometime have/had a bad day, like a lot of people I believe ^^'
I draw mostly ponies and can sometime draw some other animals and some furries ^^
Humans are rare for me to draw~ (rip anatomy)
I'm an introvert, I'm shy and don't like to be in company of peoples irl but talking to people trough skype, calls and by text is okay for me.
Being caught on camera don't stress be that much tho.
I'm also the type of girl that have a collar with a cat collar's bell and could go to school dressed up as a neko (don't judge meh), I like cosplayers and animes.
I consider myself as a Tomboy but sometime, I like to be considered as a girl... I'm totally not a girly girl even tho the collar's story. It. doesn't. count.
I like to sleep... or I'D like to sleep but I have a lot of problems and can't sleep because of all the stress...
Since I have to go to school, I'm not always here but when I'm on my computer, I'm most of the time on deviant art, drawing, watching videos or playing video games.
I'm always tired, always stressed and always afraid....
I also have something that people calls amnesia and it's sometime not really cool when you even sometime forget your own name or the name of your best friend.... I call it "partial amnesia"
I often feel guilty about things I didn't even do even when I wasn't here- I tend to think that everything bad that's happening is because of me-
I most of the time look or sound emotionless and I also think I am a little bit but the truth is that I truly show my emotions to the people I love <3
I cry a lot when I'm alone but when someone else get hurt I most of the time don't cry (the joy of not understanding what's happening~)
I don't trust a lot of people but my TRUE friends and my family.....
So if I trust you, don't betray me. I forgive but never forget.
I also like to go to an amusement park and eat spicy things tho, I still prefer sweet things
All I wish is for my friends' security, happiness, and I most of the time think of their protection before mine
So, when one of my friends get hurts instead of me, I literally hate myself~
My eyes change of colors ;u;
I don't like asking help and I'm mostly the person who help others without asking anything back and I'm very embarrassed when I get gifts but I feel really happy to see that peoples makes me some gifts but I, most of the time, am the one who do a gift to other peoples ;w;
Errr, I'm somehow afraid to love people (I mean... bf/gf) because I know that I'll probably do something wrong and just... break people's heart... so even if I feel alone I rather be alone than be in a couple that will end someday...
Tho I really do miss someone who could hug me and other ;v; But well, I guess I'm not good at being in couple?..
Tho, hugs are free here and I need hugs to cheer me up, so just come and hug me at least?
Most awesome people in the world <3 :
Don't have any. Plus I guess I could consider myself as a philophobic? (Philophobia is the fear of falling in love or being in love. Some people also say that it could also be the fear of someone falling in love with you in addition to the two other)
Mah Sistars (dah best people on the world, I don't anything to tell about them, they're just the bests.)
Mah Bestie(s) (Happy to have you TuT )
He's a sweet and funny boy, I really like him, he always cheers me up by making me at least smile a little bit >w</ His art is amazing and it's always a pleasure to talk with him :33 We don't talk a lot but I think about him pretty often :3
She's like, the first person I met on deviantart I had a real conversation with, she's really sweet and cute, even if we don't talk a lot I think a lot about her! I wish we could talk more often!
German bud, I mean, she draws really well and her ocs are sooo cute ;u;// she's really kind so that's a pleasure to talk with her!
Wow. I have just so much things to say about her, I just love the way we met tho, she's really special to me, pretty much only her knows why tho She's kind, sweet, fun to talk with, she's got a lot of talent, her art is definitely worth a shot, so go give her some love, she needs it. I'm not always here for her but I wish I could be here when she needs it. I don't want to forget but it hurts so bad... I think... that you look better without a nuisance like me.. sorry.. ugh... I lost you but I miss you so much... I hate myself so much... I hope you're doing okay
He's really sweet and cute triggered , he worries a lot about his friends, he's funny and his voice sounds really relaxing, it's really easy to get attached to him because of how he act.
You're a cute German potato chip, tbh, I kinda came to chat randomly and we started chatting more. Before I poofed into existence, I was kinda always alone, I mean, except for little chats with my sis' and I gotta say, it's nice to talk to other people, even tho we haven't known each other for a long time, we already laughed a friggin' lot, pick up lines, ships everywhere, fluffy fur balls, punk floofy oonicorns dancing on rainbowfarts, everything's here-
You're forever Snowy Le Fabuu RainbowFart :') <'3
Her art is really cool you should check it! She also have a lot of problems so I want to support her the best I can. Even if I'm not always here for her, I wish I could help her more ;; She's really sweet and somehow shy? we don't talk that much but I actually miss her :'c
He's a great friend and I love the photos he takes, he's really kind and know how to cheer me up when I need to be cheered up! He's mature and sometime, it feels good to talk to someone mature, trust me :'DD I also wish we could talk more, but I'm always shy and afraid to bother him :'3
By: SushPuppy ~
Please, if you're my friend and I forgot to add you, don't be shy and ask me to add you in there~
Senpoi list :333 (no particular number tho) :
She's perfect and will forever be my most special Senpai~
I love how her lineless looks, she must be like, the number one Senpai for everyone who does lineless drawings OwO
She knows how to draw pretty much everything very well
I also love her art >w< her shading is soft and I'm really fond of the effects she puts on her drawings
I hope that one day I'll be able to do an art trade with some of them ;w;
That's pretty much it I guess...